My anxiety, let me go see other kids😞

The love you give me is too passionate

Everything is in order,

I wana go out

but you don't want to be left alone

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My anxiety

Do you ever tell yourself that you wana go out and enjoy yourself? Do you feel like something is missing in your life?Do you know someone who suffers from anxiety? 

Let me tell you about anxiety.

You plan out everything from the outfit to the time of departure and then BOOM on the day you can't seem to find your keys. You don't remember where you placed them and start to panic. You honestly wana go out but worried about the security of where you are going. One negative thought and BOOM you don't suddenly feel safe to go out.

Most people who don't get this think you just full of yourself but not knowing what triggers it. No one wants to voluntarily be home all the time but you end up finding peace there. Whenever you try to leave something just makes it hard for you to do so. Have you seen an autistic person? Now that is a perfect example of anxiety. They don't even want to be touched.

We try to fight it off but not so easy to do so. You just simply find comfort in being alone instead of being with others. You are not sure if you can relate, know what to say, how to react or just how to behave. You worry alot. You want to fix everything but somehow it can't be fixed.

A simple thought can be turn into a really big thing to a person with anxiety. You call someone and they don't pick up, a normal reaction is " they might be busy" but with anxiety you think "something happend, what if they got hit by a car","what if they had a heart attack" or "what if they are dead". Someone who doesn't have anxiety will just find the person overreacting but it is just how they think. Nothing is really safe for them. No one can really say they know the cure for this. It eventually comes back and you start to panic all over again.

A good support structure is good for coping. One shouldn't think less of themselves or alone. Alot of us are suffering from anxiety and most think we are crazy. We are human like everyone else.  It is sad but we can fight it together.

One day we will actually leave the house and enjoy ourselves around other people. The world is not over because you have anxiety disorder. You just made to be special. It is an acute thing. Just be patient with it.