Part 4

 

Was he really happy about the space I gave him or what was going on. I decided to go to the shops and get some fresh air. When I was walking back I saw him again with the girl. I could not hold it together. I decided to go and confront him. He looked like a scared puppy as soon as he saw me.

 

 “Tshepiso who is this girl? Why are you busy getting cosy with her when I’m around?” I said so bravely. Did this girl not walk towards me and ask “Who are you to ask who am I?  I am the girlfriend last time I checked. ”. I just felt my spirit go down. This girl was not only the girlfriend but she was also pregnant.  I just kept staring at her belly. She continued to talk but my eyes were just staring at her belly.

 

I just zoned out and tears started rolling down my cheeks. The bravey was gone. My darling Tshepiso could not wait any longer for me. I felt so embarrassed and out of place. I quickly left before the crying could get louder. I kept wiping off my tears but they kept getting worse. I was too naïve to think we would last. Afterall I was at Bloemfontein most of the time and he was at Petsana. I should stayed away from boys like my mother had told me. I had just gotten my first boyfriend and he also me my first heartbreak.

 

I did not enjoy the rest of my holiday at all. The days  felt longer and I just felt more drained. I did not want to be around our friends who played just outside my house. I decided to just watch TV. Out of nowhere, my sister came inside the house to tell me That Tshepiso wanted to talk to me. I just said no and continued to watch tv. Before I knew it the tears came back. Why did he want to talk to me about when he clearly had a girlfriend. The incident happened 2 weeks ago but it remained fresh in my memory as if it had just happened. Boys are very cruel. Thank goodness my grandmother was sleeping and my uncle at work. My mind was going at it. A part of me wanted to go outside and ask him why but I just could not. He stood there at the gate a while longer but eventually gave up. My poor little had never seen me so sad and especially over a boy.

 

 It suddenly was the time for us to go back. It was going to be one long dreadful taxi ride for me. I just wanted to see my friend and tell her everything. My sister could see that I was not better at all and decided to give me some space which helped a lot. I could think clearly. I decided at that time to stay away from boys as they brought nothing but heartache. I did everything right but another girl still won.

 

The schools reopened and it was time for me to see my good friend Dikgang. I had to tell her about the drama that I had encountered. For a change, she chose to listen to me and comforted me. For the next coming weeks everything started to get back to normal. I stayed away from boys. I had no reason to be around them unless if it was school related.

 

Out of the blue after school I received a call from an unknown number. At first I was hesitant to  answer but I did answer. I could not believe who was it. Jesus take the wheel